LOL all about food, again.
ALL ABOUT THE FOOD.
You’re scared. Scared of what? Everything is going great in your life,even better than ever,but you’re still scared. Because you once had it all and you lost it,without even realizing. Your world fell apart once,it could fall apart again,nothing is stable,nothing is sure. You’re scared to lose the one you love,you’re scared to lose your image,specifically the one people have of you. You’re scared that no one understands you,you don’t want to mess up another time and go back to being alone,you don’t want to feel like somebody everyone gave up on,somebody no one needs,because that’s not what you deserve,at least that’s what you think. So you decide to watch every step you make,every word you say,but none of that works : you think you’re hopeless. You think that some how,everything is going to be okay,but those are just lies people tell you,so that you could go back to being the person they want. Society makes you what they want you to be ,not who you truly are. So you start thinking about giving up on life,thinking that it’s way too hard for you ,way to complicated,way too sad,too depressive. You can’t stop thinking about how messed up you are,about the time you have left. And in the end,you realize that all of that isn’t worth it,not even a bit,because in the first place those ideas are the ones that make you crazy,and that’s exactly what you are. But that little sparkle comes back,a feeling that you’ve had before, and you start to seek happiness,but you ask yourself ‘what’s the key to happiness?’ The key to happiness is something not everybody has. Mostly people crave it,and some others are just lucky enough to have it all , and you know,be happy. But some others need to give those people happiness,and those people are normal,just like you and every other human on earth. Those people seem the happiest,seem like they’ve got it all figured out because they can make your life perfect in no time. It’s like if they were made to be there for you,and bring you back up when you feel down,like confidence boosters, you know? Well those people aren’t the happiest in life,those people try to make the best out of what they’ve got,and what do they do when they have nothing? They surrender and wait,but for what? They wait for someone to pick them up and hope that someone realizes and tries their best to help them out. But what happens when they’re out of luck? When no one realizes? When all they’ve got is themselves? Well it’s kind of like when you hit a wall,and you get hurt,but you never get back up,because you’re way too weak to look for strength.
That’s so me !
